Thanks for reaching out. Breakups are so hard to go through — they bring up so many emotions especially when we are deeply invested in the other person. It sounds like he has his own set of issues going on and they are issues that I don’t believe you can help him with. You did try hard for awhile and it seems to me like it was a necessary ending so that you could move forward in life and become happy and whole again.
I love that you are being authentic with your feelings — in my opinion there’s no point covering them up because they will show up at some point if you repress them. The sun will come out for you again — I feel that some moments you see the light and then in others you go back into darkness for awhile. That is normal — it will shift and the sun will come out more as time passes.
Know that you did your best and some people can’t be helped by us (I also had to realize this). Keep surrendering to that and take care of YOU because you deserve that after everything you’ve been through.
Sending love your way,